Entry: kilters on and off, teaching again, and paper clay guy Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Seems like, feels like, smells to me like I've been off my game lately. Creatively, my friends, I've been feeling out of sorts and off kilter and uncertain more than I have felt confident about the art I make. So I wonder, how often do you feel off-kilter with the work you are making? Why do we wake up wondering and go to sleep wondering what we are making, why we are making, and what it matters in the big bad world? I'm trying to pay attention to my gut and to break through the un-sure but sometimes it's not so easy...
I've been sparse in part because of a big project at work and a lot of teaching and preparing to teach. Each time I approach a teaching situation (whether it is giving a talk about process and painting or teaching teachers to integrate art into their lessons or teaching art appreciation) I follow the same pattern: excitement, research, planning, over-the-top unneccessary research, anxiety, over-planning, more research, and then when I walk into the class, I wing it. Improvisation, my friends, is a lie. There's a lot of plotting and planning that goes into being able to be loose, talk on the spot, and meet the needs of the students in front of me.

More learning from plants then...

As I tromp through my garden (some of the seedlings got their little heads lopped off with the pouring down rain this weekend but others are coming along nicely. Resilence, even in the plant world, is an important trait.)

I'll leave you, then, with one of my paper clay products, a moody little guy who now sits by the window wondering. Wouldn't we all if we could...

I'll be resilient, searching for my true marks, and paying attention to the plants and the paper and the clay.
take care,
Rachael

   1 comments

mark
May 19, 2006   10:02 PM PDT
 
resilient, paying attention, and patience...not a bad place to be in. i don't think we ever really know all the answers, and there is little surety in making. the surety is in the constant questioning and searching.

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